潮起潮落：自我人生的救贖與轉折

Abstract

本研究是以自我敘說的方式，書寫六十餘載人間行路的歷程，藉由以前自己所寫的詩稿為底本，來回顧曾經走過的一切是多麼重要，或許在有些轉角處荊棘滿途，但也有一路繁花撲面的時刻，在時間的軸線上，從刻苦的童年走入熱血的軍旅；從五光十色的幻境，兼浸春風化雨的杏壇；從爭名逐權的公門到一夜安心校園。 在反思中看到自己倔強骨子裡的自卑，總覺得自己麼都比不上人，處處都要爭強好勝，哪怕是得到手的，也覺得不安心，特別沒有安全感，不知道該如何去珍惜。其實人的幸福最終取決於自心的安全感，而心之所安便是歸處。 雖然明知每個人的起點不一樣，有的人出生，他的起點就是人家的終點，而每一個人對苦難的感受和看法是不一樣的，所以是不能放在一條線上對比的，在公門服務期間，讓我看清楚，不管什麼樣的位子，總會有人比你更難勝任，也會有人比你駕輕就熟，所以人只能跟自己比，以現在的自己，跟過去與未來的自己比，其實人有很多害怕的地方，都是自己嚇自己，而放棄有時比堅持更需要勇氣。 在書寫的過程中發現，人若處於困境之時，而能不困於己心，必有見陽光的一日；若心之所想得之艱難，則失之不易；得之若易者，則失之亦然；難易之分全憑己心，因即是果，果即是因。This study is a self narrative way to write about the journey of more than 60 years in the world. Using the poems I wrote before as a base, I will review how important everything I have gone through. Maybe there are thorns at some corners. , but there are also moments of blooming flowers all the way, on the axis of time, from a hard working childhood to a passio nate army; In reflection, I saw the inferiority complex in my stubborn bones. I always felt that I was inferior to others and wanted to be competitive in everything. cherish. In fact, people's happiness ultimately depends on their own sense of security, an d the peace of mind is the home. Although we know that everyone's starting point is different, some people are born, his starting point is the end point of others, and everyone's feelings and views on suffering are different, so they cannot be compared on the same line. During the public service period , Let me see clearly, no matter what kind of position, there will always be someone who is more difficult than you, and someone who is more familiar than you, so people can only compare with themselves, with the current self, with the past and future self, in fact People have a lot of fears, all of which are scaring themselves, and giving up sometimes requires more courage than persistence. In the process of writing, I found that if a person is in a difficult situation and can not be trapped in his own heart, he will see the sun one day; if the heart wants to get it, it will be hard to lose; The same is true of loss; the difference between difficulty and difficulty depends entirely on one's own heart, the cause is the effect, and the effect is the cause.