本來面目何在？──自我探尋的生命學習心旅

Abstract

此論是「我」，藉由敘事書寫，而展開自我對「死亡、生命存在意義、自我認同」等課題之學習歷程及自我對話。這裡的對話，不僅是現在的自己對現在的自我，也是對著過去的自己對話。藉由現在的「客我」與過去「主我」的對話與詮釋過程，延伸出對過往生命的自我再認識，以及不同視角下的自我再重整。 生命旅程，有如時間長流下的列車，相續連結至現在與未來的自我。但是否有可能，在生命當中的某一站月台，可以重整或換掛車廂，重新出發？敘事，或許就能扮演這種月台的角色。我相信禪修可以，而敘事會不會也是一種「字裡行間」的禪修？ 每一個人的生命課題，都是獨一無二；一如生命中的障礙難關，也如獨享餐一般的冷暖自知。人們從剛出生時的單一樣貌，逐漸到社會化後的多重面貌。是否，能給自己一個進入月台重整的機會，逐漸回歸到那生命初始前的本來面目。那份回歸的難，雖然無法一蹴可及，但或許可以從這一站月台，作為開始。

This paper aims to analyze about “ME” through narrative writing. Base on this, to launch the process of self-learning and self-dialogue on the subject of "Death, the meaning of Life and Self-Identity". The self-dialogue is not only a communication between the Present Me and Ego, but also a progress of self-questioning and self-answering to the Past-Self. Through this process of dialogue and interpretation between the present "Object” and the past "Subject”, I better understand the Past-Self and reorganize various “ME” from different perspectives extended. Life journey is like a moving train flowing through endless time. Can continuously connect with the Present Me and Future-self. But could it be possible to reorganize or change at a certain station of life? Then set off again? Narrative may be able to play this kind of role for reorganization and change. I believe in meditation can help people with soul shift. And would narrative writing be also a kind of meditation in handwriting? Everyone's life issue is unique just like it is only self-knowledge when people meeting obstacles in their lives. People grew from a simple baby face into a complex character in the process of socialization. Can give ourselves a chance to reorganize or change gradually for returning back to the original face of life? Although the return is challenging, it could not be achieved at one time. It would be worth to give a try from this starting point by analyzing about “Me” through narrative writing.