觸動生命最初的溫柔-以敘說探尋自我成長與轉化歷程之研究

Abstract

本研究以自我敘說方式進行生命故事書寫，藉著回憶、圖像、訪談等紀錄，將親身走過的歲月足跡，以及對自我產生重要影響的關係他者、事件、感受、想法等，依時間軸的序列整理出生命各個階段的成長脈絡。透過研究歷程，研究者為年幼失恃的早熟女孩重拾親情與情感的記憶，為遠走他鄉的單身女子找回愛的能力，為被病痛壓垮生存意志的軀殼帶來行動的力量。並在敘說過程與反思的實踐中，發現自我與他者關係連結的多種樣貌，體會到敘事在成人之美與生命陪伴的意義；對於人生所相遇的一切，有了清晰的感悟與理解，更明白過往經歷即是生命的禮物，更是人生轉化與成長的泉源。

This study was aimed at entering each stage of my growth in the past in a self-narrative way so that my life experience can be reproduced. Through the records of memories, images, etc. I sorted out the memories of the growth footprints involving the crucial people, events, feelings, thoughts, etc that have had important impacts on me in my life in chronological order. By doing so, I, who used to be a precocioius girl, regained the love for my family and the memories of affection. I, who used to be a single woman, leaving far from home, recovered the capability to feel love. I, whose will to live was crushed because of illness, revived the power of action. During the process of narrating stories and reflecting, I have found a variety of appearances which are connected between me and others. Moreover, I realized the meaning of narration associated with the perfection of completion and companionship in my life. I’ve comprehended everything that happens in my life for a reason and realized the experience is the gift that life has given to. It is the source that makes life transform and mature.